Some days you just wake up and know how lucky you are. I am beyond blessed and beyond fortunate to live the life I lead…and to do it with the people I love.
I have the most amazing friends ever. Some I have had for 20 plus years, others I just met in October. These people have helped me through deaths and loss, through moves and heartbreak, and they are there whenever I need them. I have beautiful friends who send me flowers, who some people think are assholes but when we are alone are amazingly sweet (Nicholas),and some who I have “dated” and we came out as better friends. I have friends who are "my people" …the ones I can depend on for anything, the ones I would call if I was dying....those are "my people". I have friends who I go to concerts with, ones I call to make me smile, ones I have dance parties with, ones I drink with, and ones I shop with. All my friendly are uncommonly unique and special, I literally feel so blessed that I have so many different people in my life. I have a friend whom I truly find to be one of the most amazing people I have ever met, she loves beyond all logic and reason, how amazing is that… and she is only 19…can you imagine her at 27?!? I have a friend in Denver who I clicked with as soon as I met her, she is the person I tell everything to...I dont know what I would do with out her. I have a friend in Mesa who has seen me at my worst and still considers me his “bestie”, how beautiful is it, that someone can truly love you, even with your faults.. One of my best friends is a 43 year old women who works to spread kindness in the life of everyone around her, she is truly one of the most inspiring people I know. Above everything, my friends are my life. I try to do our friendships justice daily, because if I can be as good of a friend as most of my friends are to me...I will consider the life I live successful. I have amazingly beautiful friends who bring joy to my every day of my life and who I hope to continue to be friends with for years to come. ( on that note: my girlfriend Tiffany set her wedding date yesterday(YES!!!!).My amazing friend Lisa gave birth to a beautiful baby girl on Saturday. And finally my friend , Jess, just told me she was 4 month pregnant!!)
I have no hatred in my heart, and for that I consider myself a very lucky girl. I have been hurt ( who hasn’t), I have been broken ( most people have), I have been lied to and used ( everyone has)....yet I have no hatred. I have been cheated on and I don’t even have hatred in my heart. I try to hate people, I truly do…but when it comes down to it, I want people to be happy…truly sublimely over the moon happy. “ Everything happens for a reason” (ever notice how people only say that in terms of bad things)and the lessons I have learned and the knowledge I have gained from my mistakes, my past, my present, my relationships, my friendships, & my choices…is invalubale. All of those things (mistakes, reltionships, past..ect) have taught me a million things and I wouldn’t change that for anything, even if it meant not hurting for a bit. For a long time I carried hatred in my heart after the deaths of my 5 friends…But I consider myself lucky to have had them in my life, they are my guardian angels…and because of that, I cannot have hatred.
I have always been involved with non-profits and the “bigger picture” and for this I am blessed. It forces me to look outside myself, to put other’s before me, and to realize how truly lucky I am ( get the theme of this blog??). Whether it be spreading kindness, volunteering for the Humane Society, spending time at the Ronald McDonald house, donating time to The Children’s Hospital, working at a battered women’s shelter, or even telling people how fucking awful BP is…it makes me realize that there is so much more to life than my petty problems…and for this I am grateful.
I have the most awe inspiring family. A family who appreciates the saying “ not all who wander are lost” and who encourage me in all my endeavors. My mother is one of my best friends…her mom died at such a early age, you can tell she was effect by that by the way she loves her children. My father is ridiculously strong and was amazing to me while I was growing up…while my mom took my car accidents as a “personal attack” my father always reminded me “accident happen” and that I will know better for next time. My brother is flipping incredible, he beat the shit out of me growing up and encourages me to be the best I can daily…how the two are linked = I can put up with a hell of a lot from people and I always strive to be my best. I have, without a doubt , one of the best families out there.
I have lived in some of the most incredible places. I was born in Detroit, a place which people seem to despise for no reason other than “what they heard” but that city has been through a hell of a lot and it keeps going. I lives in Charlotte and even had an accent as a child. Because of this I was exposed to the East Coast in an amazing way…I got to live close (well closer than now) to my family in New Jersey and being able to travel up and down that amazing coastline. I spent my formative years in Tucson, a place that I will always consider “home”. There is so much culture in that town and it holds some of the most amazing people I have ever met. Being able to drive to California whenever I wanted really made me who I am today. Being able to go to a small surf town and learning how to ride waves and skateboard…all of this made an incredible impact on me. I spent more time in California then I have in any other place I have visited and it will always hold it dear to my heart. And last but not least Denver, it’s like this city was made for me (aside from the fucking winters). Everyone here is ridiculously healthy, organic food is abundant, vegetarian places are all over, people run like it is going out of style, the music scene rocks my socks off, and the snowboarding doesn’t suck. This week there is a big air snowboarding competition literally 10 walking minutes from my apt…SO stoked. All in all, very fortunate.
I have been loved and have had kindness in my life. It is literally the best feeling ever. I am blessed to be healthy and very happy at the moment.
All my LOVES!
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